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2014年10月30日星期四

我是在做夢嗎?!

小時候,學校來了一位講師,是來推銷新的科系(那時候這個科系是新的),全體同學都聽了這個演講。大家聽得津津有味,我也是一樣。看看那位講師的實體示範讓我覺得很不可思議,雖然那時小,但卻懷著想要幹一些事來讓這世界進步。小孩的無知單純啊~

講師把他的作品都擺在桌上,做了很多的示範。就在講師演講完畢之前,講師告訴說會開班授學,那時心裡想!喂開班!我要學!結果聽見學費,我止步了。


上到了中學,我也淡忘了,而且成績也平平淡淡,是一位中等生,中四因為跟不上衝理科換去商科,這樣一換,離這個曾經想要學習的東西更遠了,因為這東西需要數理強的人才能幹的。


如今在這裡(工藝學院),除了學習現在拿著的科系(這個科系其實對我負擔還蠻重的,數學啊~),想說已經老了(21歲才拿diploma,還不老嗎?等等!本人還沒過生日: ] )應該多學一點實體操作的技能,加入了robotic club! 我曾經想要用這東西來改變世界的啊(改變個屁,現在只能當消遣而已好不好,外頭有個科系叫做robotic engineering 和 mechantronic  engineering , 他們比你強悍多了好不好! )~ 結果甚麼活動都沒舉辦過,就這樣過了兩個學期。再一次失望,覺得好像跟自己想要學習的東西沒緣分。


剛剛收到學校robotic team 的導師(我們學校有自己的robotic team,也就是代表學校去參加比賽的那種) 的電話,說要我去robotic camp 去學習,我的反應真的很白癡!我竟然問有沒有打錯電話號碼(因為robotic team 清一色都是男的啊~),導師竟然可愛到把我的國文名字一個字母一個字母的念出來,學號等等來確認,喂!就是我啊~心情真的是真複雜啊~事隔多年我竟然還有機會接觸到機械人,再配合我修讀的科系(電子),我都不知道該說甚麼了啦啦啦!太激動了!

2014年2月14日星期五

在那以後,我自我檢討了。

不知道多久了,都已經忘了面子書的模樣,被改版了很多次吧?總算今天我把已經deactivated 的面書重新啟動,認認真真的看大家怎麼了。

除了一群大叔在面書上抱怨生活,吐槽之外,今天也是親人節和元宵節。慶祝?我慶祝光棍節,暫時沒想過要脫離光棍世界。一大堆花朵,一盒盒的巧克力,一個個不同的燭光晚餐,就連在釣蝦場度過的也有。

你的女朋友不介意哦!

刷呀刷,一位我都已經忘了她的模樣的朋友寫到:“怎麼大學裡還有馬來文啊!我都已經把它扔進溝渠了!”原來她也已經從學院畢業進了私立大學。

我?別問了。

我只能偽裝自己,讓那些已經一年沒見面的中六同班同學認為我過得很好。

我欺騙自己也欺騙他們我去了私立大學就讀,就只是想要保留那剩下的一點面子。

我也不怎麼能抱怨,抱怨的結果還是回到我自己的身上。始終還是自己態度的問題。學習態度,待人態度,社交態度,學業態度等等,沒有一樣我是滿分的。

學習態度,我從來不認為讀書是重要的,覺得讀書就只是為了應付考試,為了敷衍父母而已的把戲。我只是想要學習我自己認為我喜歡,我鐘意的東西比如吉他,畫畫,寫劇本寫小說。學習態度我敷衍了事。我總是認為自己比其他人強而驕傲,但我卻忘了我只是躲在放牛班拿第一名的長鼻木偶。直到上了中六,我才發現,我的認真和他們比較就好像台灣的科技技術和馬來西亞科技技術差8年的感覺。遲了,真的遲了。國產車永遠追不上國外跑車。

待人態度,對我沒有利益的別來找我,這是以前的我,所以我待朋友就只是想要在他們的身上得到利益,而這待人之道搞得自己遍體是傷。

社交態度 更不用說了,我永遠都是離隊的那位。看戲,唱歌,喝茶,他們所拍的照片永遠不會看見我的身影。現在看看手機通訊錄,就只有幾位能聊天的。但是現在大家也開始個忙個的生活而少聯絡了。

我從來對自己的作業一點都不要求,來得及就交,來不及就算了吧。字體就像野草加糞土,有時候自己都不知道自己在寫些什麼。“如果你能在我的書櫃裡找到我的筆記本那就證明了你的魔術很在行!”這是我對那些想要抄我筆記的人說的話。

說想開了也不完全,心結還是有的。別問我鼓不鼓勵你家的孩子去中六,我只能告訴你,我用不了中六成績進本地大學傷心是難免的,但我不覺得我花了3年的時間而得不到什麼。至少我知道我在哪方面需要改進,需要自我檢討。放手讓你的孩子去stpm 吧!三年不見了但是換取這些未來在工作上,在社交,值得的。

Stpm失敗了,3個credit 就能進私立大學
Stpm 失敗了,你可以去工藝學院攻個diploma
Stpm失敗了,優良的學習與工作態度可以讓你被上司欣賞(但是勤勞是必定的)
Stpm失敗了,你還可以重考。

2013年9月22日星期日

心裡準備

i felt very happey after knowing that broadcasting is more to course work.

why i said so?

cause i'm bad in answering with just write the answer...

of cause i like pratical things more than writing.

next month will be the orentation day, i hope i can join the course faster so that i can explain well to my family member what is this course about so that they can support me until the end of course...

of cause i want show them i can get better result when i study what i interested!

i hope they can see this.

2012年4月28日星期六

what a meaningful day, 428, every malaysian would knew this day forever, KL, P.Pinang, etc was "celebrating" this event, police very free this day, most malaysian taken left  for this event, KL become death city, but dataran merdeka was full with people like what chinese say: people mautian people sea.

look at my facebook timeline, full of the news, full of picture, yellow and green, blue was lose of the fight, many of my friend joined the event too, they told me that was fun

on the road, full of road block, traffic totally jam, from one place to one place at least 1 hour, the police job not check traffic problem yet they checking who bring yellow and green shirt, the event logo and badge.

of cause i'm no join it.

i'm join my own shopping time.

and jam on the road for half and hour.

this event no just a normal event but i just a start for a new game.

wait and see......

2012年3月21日星期三

他媽的補習


是,我是補得很不開心,原因?多得很……
從以前到現在我都知道我的腦袋思考永遠都慢人一步,我是考邏輯吃飯的。中六啦,我別無選擇,學校給的科目,不對,應該說我其實跟不上中六生所需要的步伐。
都說是文科了,課文一定都是文字,所讀的一定是文字,我每天躲在廁所嘔吐,我每天課外活動到4點,我的補習時間超不穩定,不!是有位老師令人超不爽!超想在她面前罵句“干”
以前那位老師的所作所為我還能接受,但是現在~干!
老師是對的,但是一位偏袒同學的行為我真的是接受不到!太離譜了! 有時候不是老師離譜而是有位同學太過分!
起初我還以為這位同學值得交,哪兒知道原來她是雙面人!在我面前一個樣,在我的背後又另外一個樣!之前告訴我沒交功課,好啦,我沒交功課應該是有老師告訴我不是嗎?他是誰?有什麽權利告訴我?老師怎麼啦?把自己的工作忘啦?這樣您怎麼做個稱職的老師?!干!
這次跟嚴重了!太不公平了!昨天老師告訴我星期六有考試,我在想什麼時候老師告訴我要考試啦?!怎麼那位同學知道而我卻不知道,那天我問老師有這麼一回事怎麼我不知道!那位同學說我上課不專心,上課不聽課?!嘿小姐!我去上課的次數比你多!我上課座位前過你,我上課比你早到!干!你那兒有資格說我啦?!我沒說你你卻轉過來在我的背後捅我一刀?!他媽的我超不高興的!
我告訴了朋友我面對的問題,他們說老師的確有點過分,兩位同校的同學待遇竟然差的那麼離譜!
這還不是最氣的,最氣的還是明明時間是在星期6早上1030,可是這位老師心情好就換成1130,心情不好就取消然後補在一天我們有事情做的一天,大家都喊吃不消!
最近老媽子都很有時間的問我怎麼出去一整天沒有回家,我到底是去了哪裡?其實我都是去了補習,我的補習時間超不定的!平常沒改變都是1,3,5,6 如果有改變的話就是1,2,3,4,5,6,7。。。。
就是這樣我發現到我跟家人相處的時間少了許多!我補習回來就是晚上了,我回來他們要入眠,他們出門我才起床。。。。。。
不要說我對家人漠不關心,我也很擔心的好不好,就像最近老媽子開刀,我只去探望了一天,還要我大姐趕回來,之後老爸跌倒撞到鼻子流血了,如果老媽子沒有告訴我我還真的不知道有這麼一回事!
我真的很氣自己!氣自己爲什麽搞成這個樣?!
請珍惜自己的家人,不要等到他們都躺進棺材了才來後悔爲什麽當初沒有給予關心

2011年9月3日星期六

Attitude!

"Hei girl! what are you doing? I had called you guys for 3 times! what are you doing? I have something to announce!"

The girls from the class walked slowly to the other class, but the teacher were no stopped scolding...... 

“please change your attitude girls! If you still continue this attitude, lets see what will you get after you get your result!”

what the hell she like to scold us with this reason, I cant take it and it hurt me!

this is what keep happening at high school.

2011年7月27日星期三

i have start my form 6 life for 2 and a half month, yah it is fun..... but i realize that actualy they are no easy to join!

there have a lot of activity are waiting for us.... such as what we done yesterday, the aerobic dance, training for so many day and what we get for it? juat burn our fats only or just take it for fun? i cant take it as fun but i take it serious tooo!

after this activity... yah there comes up a task for us again! what the fucking stupid task and there have a group of '"brain" sitting there and have the talk!

they ask: how can we get the charity thimg to the house?

i answered: we can get the material from posting out a event at fb...(i havent finish my talk)

a girl ans: u r too childish, how can u carry so many thing come to school? we have no transport!

i ans: yah i know but...( still the same i havent finish my talk)

she asked: then why you still came out a workless thing?

i.ans; i havennt finish my tak

2011年4月4日星期一

the way we life

there have different way to life...

nowadays i heard that he had open concert at taipei,taiwan. yah, i want to admin that the show really nice and confortable to see...

yah... i want say about some one love story, the main charecter is the guy who open concert at taipei...

lilian. the model who have a g cup bra... so what for that?! a very shy guy had love love lilian,, yah, when i heard the news that they had together for 9 month i was surprised and if have the change i want to say congrate to the guy.... finally he get a girl friend...

one day, the guy go to have a movie with lilian.. oh gosh there had gou zai dui at there... the guy knew that and they find some way to run out from them... thank god the gou zai dui get them.... lilian throw the water towards to reporter and said she had fallcdown that time... the guy get shock=!!! and now they spared...

i felt the guy i had wrote very pity, nowwdays the compeny said dun wan continue contrack with him.... how can?! he had work there for 9 years! how that they say dont wan to continue the contrack?!

now i feel dissapointed to the music compeny,,,,, i thought they will give the fair thing to there singer.... and now?

now i think of that do o support them some more?!

2011年3月20日星期日

finally i finish my ns life! wuuhooooooo.........

13/3/2011


the most importance day for me and my friend....
before this day, my friend and I had no sleep for it until the day coming....
we ate mee cup and finish up our junk food tat day,and yong shui(pui yee) had win a prize foe the singing competition, what a great prize for us....


to the 2nd day, tat was 13/3/2011!
the day we finish up our ns training and go back that day, what a happy and sad day for all of us!






our alpha bendera which draw by ai lynn, pui yee, wei jie, brandon, shu wen, darren, amir,me....




our dewan seberguna,kem plkn terkok....
terkok rocksssssss




my m16!!!!!!




my dormmate........and the bendera......




all chinese......




our kem komanden!




yong shui!!!!!!!pui yee and me
of cause the kem shirt




dorrene and me with sijil




best friend at there.....




haow ming & me




me, wei jie, dick hen




although until now i still no really like ns but now i finish it with successful
with all plkn friend, with all the teacher, and also k.k
hope all of us can be success on our life....
go on for it!

2010年11月1日星期一

renew~

i have just renew my playlist and my blog, check it out~


i had just wrote two story for halloween~ tomorrow will post out~


i will stop my blog life style for 3 month~ take note


And i hove nothing to say


that's all~ good night~

2010年10月23日星期六

get problem?

huh? what problem I had meet? Actually that is a small problem.......


want me show out what is my problem?
sure I will show it~ but before that...... I want ask myself~
Is it I show out the problem... I can solve it?


1.my exam....
- BM:C
- BI:C
- History:PASS
- MATHS:B
- ACC: PASS
- PDG: C
- BC:B
- Moral:A
- ERT:B
how bad is it?
the conclusion is on your hand


2.facebook
- got one idiot always comment on my status and always said that his phone is the best..... his computer is the best best best! hey guy... it depends on the user! if you feel that the thing is the best then i have nothing to say.... I always feel that what I use is the best..... Cause it depends on the user


3. My dreams
- After serene share her story me i felt that why I can't success my dream?
hey girl, just like what she said, do what you need to do, work hard on your job, success is just beside you!


OK~ sharing is the best~
I love you sharing!!!!
WOOHOO

2010年9月6日星期一

dance and sing gathering have fun?

DNS= dance and sing gathering.....


continue form the lose or lost......


i lost my money....


i lost my face.....


i lost my change.....


i lost my phone memory.......


i lost my tution time......


i lost my time......


i lost my sound......


i lost my moral value......


i know the result without guessing
all the winner have fun
all the loser have nothing
but i can measure that.....


the loser will learn more thing then the winner


i learn it


i want to try it


i like the way to learn!




hui ying and me




all bekas and one junior




full ajk member and bekas

2010年7月26日星期一

update! update! update!

Already many month no update my blog, what make this happen? later you will know what is the story~

Feel very sad this few month, no only sad, that is very very very sad, ask me why? it a very very long story to tell~ gosh~ when i think back the story, i want kill the person who make me very angry~

1st thing happen:
this almost happen every month
some virus attack my computer, pendrive, and my phone memory card....... i take my computer to format(it got connection,my pendrive and phone memory card nearly spoil~^w^)after format, my com is come back form the "hospital", i use it for three days, it's attack by virus again when i using pps to watch my drama, the screen suddenly  black in colour, i feel very scare! i format it for rm50, now i need to pay more rm50 for my com? no way, but by the way, my friend no charge me the money, i put down the storm...... after second time format, my com harddisce upgrade, i use that for 3 week, it spoil again~ WTF! i feel very angry and disappointed, i want throw it, i want spoil it into half, i want it disappear in front of my eye..... but i cant do that cause my sister need to use it...... no choice, i made my com well now, hope it will no happen anything till the end of this year.....

2nd thing happen:
my friend send me a massege, SEMAK PLKN (IC NO>) to 15888, she call me to check it out, yah i did that, the result is: tahniah! anda telah dipilih untuk menyetai PLKN kuml 3 siri 8/2010........
my first respond! what the fuck! i scold it out in front of my history teacher, i feel very angry! i hate to join this type of thing, if i no forget, last time i go for BSM camp tutti for four day, i come back with sick and whole body gatal~ seriously! i have skin sensitive problem since i born...... now thinking what method i can use to let-off this stupid NS

3th thing happen:
my phone drop from my table...... the phone's body spoil....... it's alright, but few day ago, i realize that my phone cant hear,3g cant use, screen run of the colour when i slide up my phone......it happen again...... ribben got something happen~ hate it men, after that i invited my bigger sister to join me to find a new phone for myself....... firstly i saw nokia 7230, it ok ok lo.... after that my sister take a phone to see, nokia 5530xm touchscreen...... actually i like it, it same like 5800xm,it a second generation of 5800xm also can say that is the mini version of 5800..... now stilll do some planing for money..... hope i can buy the phone soon~

it very night, a rainning night, it's good for everyone to sleep.... very good night~ 

2010年1月10日星期日

school re-open

now school are re-open,i'm old, pengetua still no come,penolong too......the stupid teacher always say this beside my ear!"hey guy! this year already form 5! please be prepare for your SPM!"i hate this word!

now wanna plan to make a dedication, lucky biscut, now just wait my sister send the biscut to me on this week! i hope my plan can come true, the teacher will use another eyes to see me, whatever i done on last just to make the chinese club more batter!

homework be come more, teacher always come! last year teacher always don't want come to our class! why now different?just because the spm?but i still happy because i get a good teacher.that was my history teacher,pn.syamala

"you want continue take your seni? if want please tell me as fast as pasible."my seni teacher said, until now i still no give the answer to the teacher, i must think before i make a dicision!

i feel that school was no fair! why first and second class can get the tecnich answer the question paper, why last class no have?! whatever we were last class but we still human! what the stuid stuff? why so no fair? what the f...

now was late i still writing my blog, tomorrow still need to school , my homework still no finish yet! what the f...

2010年1月1日星期五

2010! what i had been done on 2009!

what i had been done on 2009? Em...
JAN:-open school and know what class i study(sci class)
        -the class no good for me, change class in process( act class)
FED:-chinese new year, just only won rm20, eat stimbol, balik kampung.....
        -finish chinese new year, started my 1st class on 4 nilam
        -EXAM! monthly test
MAC:-study and exam
         -scold my chinese club member!
         -make activity
APL:-study.....
MAY:-holiday for half month,go camp
JUN:-go back school ,exam(half year test)
JULY:-study, school off
OGS:-monthly test,study
SEP:-study
OCT:always ponteng class, chil whit my classmate,get high on hallowen,join koperasi
NOV:final exam, ponteng school
DEC:-off school and hang out with my big sister,countdown for x'mas ,prepare for next year,countdown at house

this is what i done on 2009, just sleep, eat, school, off school, hang out with friend.....
that all what i had been done on 2009
i hope my new yaer will happen more new thing! 1st thing was i will sit for SPM!My target? no..... i no have target!

2009年12月9日星期三

whole day eat maggie mee!

dunno why and why my mom go and buy many maggie mee tuesday ? Now i know why! she lazy to cook for us! WAH! maggie mee ,mi sedap, indo mee, and more and more? when malaysia come out so many brand maggie!dunno why? feel sucks to the maggie mee~@@! last time call me eat maggie i will think whole day!


still thinking about the album~ dunno wan buy or not~ rm42~ my half gaji will gone if really buy it!how? no choice, ask my friend can gv some discount for me or not! batter is can! i will thanks god every much!


half gaji i use! buy some new colth for my chinese new year, rm60 discount till rm20! no bad right? pink and white(when i become pinky?) and one more puma cloth(my big sister buy wan) now still left some thing~ dunno wat is tat! school bag still can use, pencil cave still in a good look, shoe, let me think first,erm......


now, prepare for my school holiday finish! i can go back school after 3 weeks later! yes! waiting...... i waiting for you! i waiting for you~ waiting for you kiss me at the nite(sorry! singing some song!)